I’ve been away for quite a while, partly due to my eye infections worsened by computer eye strain. Oddly enough, while recovering from this problem, my sister who is totally blind since birth, began to experience visual effects for the first time.
We’ve been exploring this all summer, while various docs decide if this is neural – migraine aura – or forgotten images stored in her memory when perhaps as an infant she could see some forms but lost that small bit of sight very soon. She loves that idea, that she could actually see a little for a little while as a child but couldn’t communicate that sight to us; that idea gives her hope. It seems that individuals who became blind – not born blind – can sometimes experience memories of sight within their minds. Was my sister always completely blind from birth? Or perhaps these were true hallucinations from some mental disorder, a possibility quickly rejected by everyone.
I adhere to the migraine aura, which is disappointing to a sister who has lived her life clinging to the faint hope that someday someone would discover a way to let her see, even if only for a short time. She has no concept what I look like or a tree or anything else. It’s been a fascinating summer for me but unfortunately a frustrating one for both of us. For a short time this summer I had patches on both eyes and for that short time I began to feel, ever so slightly, a little of her terror and frustration.